The things which are causing you extreme consternation suddenly seem part of you. You have longed to dissociate from them but when suddenly nature unfolds its magic and gets the pliers to break and unshackle, you just don't want to give in.
This is the greatest paradox of life. Don't ever spend too much time with something which has exhausted post a buffer time past the phase of enthusiasm, for it leaves an indelible imprint and a weird longing to be arrested with those unwanted compulsions which even the new opportunities or the anticipation of new opportunities fails to wash away.
